my life may not be anything special
1st January, 2009. 10:46 am. It's going to be a happy new year
Last night I went to bed early, and slept well, and that is exactly what the doctor ordered for a great new year. The snow and not sleeping the night before put a damper on my plans, plus the boy is still not feeling %100.
2008 was a strange year. I'm not sure how else to describe it. There will be no nice little neat year review without any loose ends this year. I did succeed and do what I resolved to do what I said I would. I'm a home owner. And I'm leading a a greener life.
This year I want to stay healthy. I was sick a lot last year. That is not going to happen this year.
Parts of being healthy are:
1) Staying on top of things and
2) Not letting them pile up
3) And sticking with healthy habits.
4) I'm going to hold my self accountable on that.
So that is what I'm going to do.
I wish you all a happy, healthy, and kick ass new year!
19th December, 2008. 10:13 pm. compression depression
I spent some time looking at my journal from the past year. New years is around the corner, and with all these count down and year in review shows on my Tivo, I felt the need to do the same for my life.
I spent a lot of this year slipping into a depression, being depressed, trying to get out of it, and trying to pick up the pieces and dealing with the after math.
Depression steals time. I didn't get as much done as I wanted to. But I'm ok. The house is mine, I have all the time in the world... well all the time the world will give me.
I think part of me is used to big things happening each year. Land mark events. Breaking up, buying a house, getting a new better job. That didn't really happen this year. Buying the house was a last year thing... The move WAS this year. BUT I still have painting to do. There is still curtains to hang, and decorating ideas to execute... Shrugs. It will all get done.
My relationship is in a good place. As much as I complained in my journal, He is good, and good for me. And he put up with my funk, and took care of me well. It looks like things are moving forward in a good direction.
That is all for now
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27th November, 2008. 9:59 pm.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
27th November, 2008. 8:22 pm. and after allllll....
I went and had turkey and the fixings today with the family. It was yummy and overall I guess it wasn't too bad. I always love seeing my grandmother even if she sometimes drives me batty.
One of the pseudo step sisters was there... And sometimes in my head I am not a nice person. I think very bad and evil thoughts... And I make myself laugh. Laugh a lot.
Boy is spending the night again. That will be nice. I like sleeping next to him. He will be leaving for work after I do, so I will not be starting my new habit of making my bed tomorrow. That will have to wait till Saturday I guess. I guess I'll skip a head and read an essay tonight, and backtrack to bed making tomorrow. That makes sense.
(I know all this talk of new habits, and day whatever does not make sense to most of you, but I'm working on regaining control of the clutter in my house, and trying to create some good habits so I don't fall this behind again. I was sort of o n top of things... and when I hit that bout of depression, well everything crumbled. Now that I'm on the up swing again I have to dig my self out of the hole I created. I have found a system to do this, and part of it is little daily challenges. Posting about these things is helping me see it in black and white, and help me hold myself accountable.) So thanks for listening ;-)
Ok... I'm off to clean off my bed side table and a few other horizontal surfaces in my bedroom.
22nd November, 2008. 12:49 pm. Looking for an automatic litter box
I am so sick of cleaning the litter box. I attempted to toilet train my cats, using Citikitty, and it has not worked. My little one (not quite a year) isn't getting the hang of it. I think I'm going to invest in an automatic litter box. It is an expensive investment, so I want to make sure I get the right one.
Do any of you use an automatic litter box? What one would to recommend, what one should I avoid? Any other pros and cons?
Thanks, and have a great weekend!
13th November, 2008. 7:01 pm. Day 5. SICK
- Getting Dressed to lace up shoes- Went to work, so it got done.
- Keeping our sink shining- It's still empty
- Reading 2 minutes of Reminders.- Keeping up with it on LJ. Yuppers
- Looking at our posted reminders in the kitchen and bathroom.- Posting online. And I checked them out.
Are you hearing any of those nagging negative voices popping into your head? I want you to take a piece of paper and write down what you hear then I want you to turn those ugly words around and say something nice to yourself to negate the ugly words that they said.
Happy to report I'm feeling pretty good mentally. Due to a cold I feel like crap, but there are no automatic negative thoughts (ANTs) that need to squashed out!
I think I'm going to forgo 15 mins of decluttering and the mission (as it the mission isn't something that needs to be done) and focus on getting rest and getting better. I don't have the time to be down for the count.
Hmmm... does using my Neti Pot multiple timese count as decluttering my sinuses?
12th November, 2008. 9:58 pm. TO DO(ne) list
- Getting Dressed to lace up shoes
- Keeping our sink shining
- Reading 2 minutes of Reminders
- Got trash already to go out tomorrow... too bad because of the holiday trash day was puched back a day... yeah.
-I also plan on doing 15 mins or working on my bedroom.
*Give credit to myself for what I have done. YUP
Yup... on track and keeping up.
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10th November, 2008. 8:05 pm. Baby steppin' to a clean house
Shine your sink- Check.
It has been done for a week now.
Dishes are done and the sink is empty.
And it is going to stay that way!
3rd November, 2008. 8:16 pm. The count down is on!
Tomorrow George Dub-ya Bush will be a LAME DUCK!
I have been looking forward to this moment since before I was legally allowed to drink!
2nd November, 2008. 5:48 pm. Also
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Picked up meds.
A cardigan for the weddings has been bought. Cashmere even. Oh so sexxxy!